“…I’m celebrating myself! It’s something that we, as human beings, should do once in a while.”
“When was the last time you cried?”
“When was the last time I cried? I don’t even remember. I know it was recent though. I think I cried right before Christmas vacation because I was very stressed about trying to get an independent study under way.”
“What made you stop crying?”
“I stopped crying because I realized that I’m so much closer to being done with this semester which is a special milestone in my life.”
“Who’s influenced you the most in your life?”
“It’s probably cliché…but my mom. There are times when we clash, but in the end I know that she’s always there to support me and love me no matter what I choose to do with my life. My mom has made me believe that I am a beautiful, strong willed woman and that I’m capable of achieving anything I put my mind to.”
“What is your most memorable moment in college?”
“I won’t say ‘most’, but my first memorable moment of college was being introduced to EHP, which is Expanding Horizons, a student support program. It was a program that got me into the college life. It was the first niche that I had established here. I met a lot of nice people, grew as a person, and came out of my shell. It gave me a willingness to try new things.”
“What was the biggest argument you ever had?”
“It was probably one I had with my ex-boyfriend. It was a really complicated and difficult time, but it was a time that brought a lot of reflection. It was a time where I had to finally stand up for who I am as a person and what I represent. Sometimes I felt that he didn’t recognize that and that’s just how I feel in general about any situation or conflict. I feel like with some people, I have to defend myself and who I am as a person. That’s probably one of the biggest issues I have; reassuring people of who I am and reassuring myself of who I am. It’s a daily thing that I struggle with. And maybe it’s just not in an argument, but it’s just conflicting thoughts that I think of often. I’m a firm believer that when you’re in a relationship with a person, they’re supposed to make you feel beautiful on days when you feel ugly. Of course you’re bound to get on each other’s nerves time and time again, but it’s the lovely things you see in one another that makes you stay. I’m so glad that I stopped putting up with his crap. I used to see his hurtful words as his way of showing me affection because you know…we all show it differently. I guess I was so infatuated with the idea of having a boyfriend that I forgot about myself in the process. I’m learning to keep myself in mind every day if that makes any sense. I even go on Facebook and write statuses about how strong and inwardly beautiful I am. It’s such a great reminder. It might bug some of the people who are friends with me on Facebook, but I don’t care. I mean, I’m celebrating myself! It’s something that we, as human beings, should do once in a while.”
“Do you still talk to your ex-boyfriend?”
“Hell no! It’s funny because I actually checked my newsfeed ten minutes ago and he announced that he and his current girlfriend are getting married and have a baby on the way. Good riddance!”